Cleared my blog, you guys. Years and years and years of lies, hurt, distress, and....well...LIFE... It is forever saved in my drafts here if I ever want to revisit but Ive grown..its what we are supposed to do, no?
I woke up this morning and made myself workout. It fucking sucked. Like bad. I was miserable. Was mad for about 30 minutes post workout, through my shower and sipping my coffee. I sat on my couch in my bright red, short bathrobe pissed off that it was too short. I wasn't ready to login to work though I needed to as two days in a row my breeders have contacted me before 7am. All the recipe for starting my day in the shitter...
I decided that I'd better get to work and walked into my office to find that Vader decided to piss on my work chair. Down the chair, covering the floor and all over the carpet. I.JUST.SHOWERED. Hair wet in a messy bun, still pissed at the length of my red robe and now fairly enraged at the fact that my ass is hanging out of my robe and I'm sucking piss out of my carpet....What kind of day is this going to be.. what a damn start.
NOPE. Not doing it, you guys. I turned on my favorite thought-envoking playlist, changed into my favorite heather grey with black zip up and mis-matched oversized tie-dyed peloton joggers and lit my snow cone scented candle and got to work.
Its been weighing so heavily on my mind that so many people live in just....sadness..anger..misery because it overtakes them and they can't see the other side. That was almost me today, you guys. I hope you can get there too. Make today the best there is. You can. I am here if you need me.
smile...love..live...OVERCOME... we can. you can. I got you and love you.
smiles!
